11-20-12 ~ im stuck in a slump

i cant get over erik
its actually pathetic
im happy 99% of the time. but now, the 1% im just upset.
 
not to mentio the whole rebound victom liking other people. ouch. [never will i ever mention whom that is. cause its pretty obvious whom it is anywho.] but im starting to think maybe i've liked the rebound victom all along? idk.. it oculd be the rebound talking.
 
but that hurt doesnt compare to the erik shit.
i have to work tomorrow. gah
and drive past erik's house? and i have to drive so i cant look away.
i HAVE to see it.
 
im not drinking tomorrow.
cant
wont.
im too upset im afriad i'll loose myself again.
not again.
i dont trust anyone in that group. i thought i used to but i guess i was wrong.
#ineednewfriends
-lauren