well expressed! the important thing is that you KNOW how you are feeling...you aren't floating away from it. have you shared this with your t? or maybe print out this set and show him/her. it's very powerful with those silencing messages. it looks like the person in black with finger to lips is creating the spinning, blurring, silencing. perhaps she is showing us/you who she is and her job. Help her and the rest goes away...and the alters having to cause that dizziness and blurring would be much relieved.
I understand this. I tend to have the same problem when I try to talk in therapy. Its really great that you are expressing how talking makes you feel. Hang in there!