[collab with big sister @elaineeeee ♥ a super late collab! i blame the wifi..&my writers block. hmft]
Ever since the day Avery and I became official, I'd constantly wake up after the same dream of her leaving me just because of the secrets I kept shut from her. The dreams were starting to turn into nightmares each day. Maybe I needed some serious help because it was going to drive me Insane.
Today, it was no exception. But the difference is that the girl I dream of leaving me is now next to me, staring with a panic expression as she held my sweaty arms.
"Nightmare.." I mumbled to her before lying against the headboard with a sigh. "Don't ask me what its about because I don't remember.." I lied. Actually, I remembered every single scene of it. As if it was going to happen.
She scooted closer and I swear I could hear how her heart is actually still beating faster than normal. Maybe I scared her with my screams.
"Blake.." she whispered, wrapping her arms around my torso before nuzzling my chest softly with her nose. "What's wrong? You've been sort of weird after spending the christmas with your brothers and sister.."
I kept quiet. I didn't really know what to say.
"Do you want to tell me something?" she persisted, pulling back just slightly as she tilted her head up to look at me.
I ignored her question and instead pulled her to seat on my lap. "You know, we fell asleep and the d.amn television ended watching us.." I said, nudging towards the flat screen where the credits from Mission Impossible 2 started to roll up.
She let out a sigh and shrugged. "Its not my fault you decided to watch mission impossible instead of iron man.."
I chuckled and stared up at the clock. "We still have time to catch the fireworks. Ten minutes before 2011 ends."
I watched as Avery slipped off the bed, making her way over to my side before dragging me up and towards the balcony.
"Come on then, before we miss the counting," she said as she moved backwards with a happy smile on her face. She was so gorgeous.
I smiled lightly and held my hand up to stop her. "Hold on," I said and walked over to the coat hanger by the door. I grabbed her jacket and mine before coming back to her. "I wouldn't want you to get a cold out there." I grinned and wrapped it around her shoulders.
Avery tip-toed and gave me a light peck before giving me a wide smile. "I'm one lucky girl, am I?"
If only she knew. Then she'd probably turn the lucky word to more on the bad luck term.
Nonetheless, I let out a halfhearted chuckle. Inside I was burning in shame? I didn't know. "Shouldn't I be the one to feel lucky?"
We walked out to the balcony hand in hand and she leaned on the railing. I wrapped my arms around her waist and rested my chin on her shoulder.
"Where were you this time last year?" she asked as she placed her hands on my arms.
"Standing at the balcony of my Germany apartment thinking when am I going to find someone like you," he said and kissed her neck.
She giggled. "Ha ha," she said, turning around to face me. "I'm serious. What were you doing that time of the year?"
"I was with a good friend of mine at a party, counting down with a bunch of unknown Germans."
She laughed. "That's.."
"Sad, right?" I scoffed. "But now I've got you."
She half smiled. "And I've got you."
I smiled. She was and still is the best thing that had ever happen in my life. I couldn't part with her. Even while we were celebrating Christmas separately, it just felt like something was missing.
I leaned down to give her a quick kiss when the fireworks shot up to the sky behind her. I broke the kiss. "Ohh.."
"Damn it," she muttered.
"I've always missed the count down.." I chuckled as we stared up the colourful fireworks.
She grinned and tilted her head to look at me. "Why's that?"
"Lost somewhere. Thinking of how my siblings are spending theirs." I truthfully told her as we sat on the bench, fingers still tangled together. "Of course their new year isn't as sad as mine.."
Avery placed a hand on my cheek and smiled. "But yours aren't going to be sad from now on. 2012 is going to be our year."
The thought of 2012 being our first year together made me smile. I am determine to make Avery and I work. Even if I have to lose everything.
"Now there's the Blake smile," Avery said and pecked my lips lightly. "What's going on in your little head, Hunter."
"A lot of stuff," I admitted and pulled her closer, enjoying the warmth of her body and secretly amused at how she could perfectly fit well in my arms. As if the angels had measured her size accurately into mine.
For a while there was silence. She stared into my eyes almost trying to find answers before humming softly.
"You know you can tell me when you're ready right?"
I buried my head in her shoulder and nodded half heartedly. Will I ever be ready?
"Avery, would you be angry at me if suddenly I tell you that I'm not who you think I am?" I asked and then quickly added. "I mean IF not that.."
She cut me off, placing her palm on my chest. "Its here that matters, Hunter."
I mentally winced. Hunter. "You sure?"
She nodded. "Yes." she said almost nonchalantly before changing the subject. "So what are we going to do now?"
I pursed my lip. "Cuddle here till the sun rises."
She laughed. "Then we'll be two sick monkeys by then."
"Two sick love birds," I corrected her then leaned in to give a kiss.
She blushed as I pulled away, biting slightly on her lower lip. Still, she blushed an insanely cute blush everytime I kiss her. "I like it when you blush," I said and looked at her with a huge grin.
I stared at her again with grin huger than before. "Stop what?"
I pouted. "I don't know what you're talking about.."
Avery scoffed. "Oh you know it."
I smirked, leaning forward and repeated the same thing to make her blush but this time it was her who bit on my lower lip lightly, placing her hands on my chest. "You mean this?" I asked with a chuckle.
She pushed me backwards. "What else?"
"Oh I don't know.." I said before pulling her into a kiss again until it was hard to breathe.
She pouted up at me and I laughed, snuggling her into my chest. "I love you, Avery. So much."
"I love you too, Blake.." she whispered. "Happy 2012."
"Just for the record, its not going to be armageddon this year so I expect to be at least engaged with you by the time we're kissing at the same spot here, celebrating 2013."
She giggled and nodded. "We'll see."