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♥He went to the wrong room
♥Pablo & I chitchat.
♥Tried as $%#
♥Read today, almost done with my book.
♥Writing now too
♥Can't believe I didn't see you today.
♥Five more days till I see you
♥After school. Lame guys. Awesome Friends. Accidentally hung up on Damaris. Ouch. && Cried my eyes out.
 
"Hai there well just want you to know something, I want to say it but I can't, well at least on here but I can work my way around it. I've seen these three words tossed around like salty melted banana raisined peppered gravy. But when I say it I don't want to say it on here or at first sight, I want to say so that it'll hit so hard that you be screaming "OMG" at the top of my golden letters I built for you. It doesn't matter if you say it back, all that matters is that you know how I feel. You might think its lush or care but I know what it is and its exploding like the chemical reaction of pure hydrogen with oxygen. I will wait for the day you want me to, no date is too long for you, as long as I know you'll be there till then. Its not the looks, the eyes, the hands, the lips, its you. You might...
think that I pre-wrote this, well you are sadly but honorable mistaken. All this cajoling is just a mere aspect of what some may call "charm". Well Chi till next time we meet, just know how I feel. Look at the care, no not care... lush, no not lush... love, yeah that's it, look at the love-o-meter and you'll see. Its never bye its always till next time."
--That guy again. Written on 12-30-09

♥I thought I'd have to wait
♥My friend's bf bought her organic tampons!
♥I took one final today, pre calulus..ugh
♥I only got to see him for 4 minutes today
♥Drama, Lust, Love. It happens.
♥I will see him tomorrow for a whole two hours! haha
♥You better hurry your test up so we can chitchat like losers

♥Saw Paranormal Activity.
♥I have to go pee when i get nervous
♥English Final is Tomorrow
♥I am horrible at picking the music that you work out to :)
♥ How in the world am i going to take my finals with you beside me!?
♥ I'm crazy about you. :)

♪Monkey Mikey is in a comma
♪Stab My Back-by AAR
♪Tried.
♪School Tomorrow, kinda excited.
♪Taking first final tomorrow
♪Going to write music today
♪& Read too
 
"Chi I can't sleep, I'm so downed on what I said to Ernie still. Look I know you may never want to hear me say "I love you" again. I know what I said hurt you, real bad. All I can say to defend my real truth is I don't feel that way, and by that I mean I didn't mean what I told Ernie. It was also how you left to, no bye or anything you just got up and said "well, yeah" to my "its never the way want it to end". That just got me pissed off, I didn't know what to do, so I just took a stab at the first thing that I saw that was most vulnerable, which was how I felt about you at the moment. At the same time I had in my mind that you didn't like me one bit and it seemed as if everything you did with me was just for show, nothing backing it up, and also knowing my emotions pushed me to do what I did with you. When you told me that you lied about the "spark" thing my emotions went through the roof, if you were with me when you said it I would have kissed you head to toe, just to show how much I love you. I would still proudly, honourably, emotionally, and happily do it now. Once you told me that I was just looking for the message when you told me about the "spark" thing. And I find something that broke my heart, wondering why I said it I was also thinking "should I tell her??" Then I eventually do. It was soo hard for me to see you not know what to say. Chi I love you so much its indescribable. While at Mario's and Joe's I just didn't know what was going on, I wanted to have fun but I couldn't my mind was stuck on you like fire ants on a spilled snow cone or old gum on a bench. On our last convo I really felt bad on telling you, but I had to speak the truth, I want our relationship to last forever, and I would hate it to start on lies. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to stay with you even if it means being your boy toy, to me it'll just be a substitution for the word "boyfriend", to me. Well I can sleep well knowing that this reaches you. Chi I love you, now until who knows when but I will, always. And I can't wait till we finish college, so I can meet your parents and you can tell them that you sustained an academic life with a boy toy along the road, then again that's just my two cents. I'm getting sleepy darling, I have STFTTTB on repeat for inspiration on writing this. I guess this is that 3rd letter out of 10 I owe you huh? They'll get better with more knowledge gained, I would put my quote here but you know it c: Well good morning if you read this by morning and good night from my time now. It's never bye its always till next time my love. Later. "
--Written By the guy who gives me those butterflies still.

♥Don't get too excited Mr.
♥Today was better
♥Boy Toys, not boyfriends.
♥Reading "Cross My heart and Hope to Spy"
♥What goes up must come down...right Mr. Staster---suggested by Eric

Haha, this is for my best friend. He's gay. lol. And he's awesome. One of my closest friends. I love him. AHH! You know who you are and you're the best even though you're a loser!
 
1-8-2010
Today. I broke the heart of someone i cared for more than anything. I lied to him about why i had to break his heart. I had to hurt his heart so that my own heart would be spared. Selfish. I care about him more than any other guy, but I had to do what i did. I know I'll regret it, but I'll never let him know. I'll be the one that he'll always remember as the girl who could yet to love him, even though he loved her. O Mikey, O Mikey, wherefore art thou Mikey? Maybe in a different world things could be, maybe at a different time, things could be. If only he knew how i really felt. If only i didn't tell him that I just saw him as a friend now. If only, we were older. I know i did the right thing today, well at least it's right for everyone around me, but honestly, I couldn't be what he'd hope for. I may be miss perfect in his eyes (haha lol), but I'm not. I could have never made him happy. Oh well, but have you guys ever wanted to stay friends with a bf, but you didn't want him to go out with anyone else? Like selfish. I hate that i am, but I'll have to get over it. :)
 
Oh, and 1-7-2010 was the day he told me he loved me.

☮I enjoy our secrets
☮I'll see you Thursday
☮haha, we're going to Disneyland on 75 dollars :P
☮No more spending on me either!!
☮You're my sweet cheeks

☮He really did, you know he has his way with words
☮I'm loving Chimas already
☮Crystal and me are going to meet up at the library on thrusday to do the rocket project thing.... :P
☮Did you sleep well?

☮Monkey Mikey slept very well last night :P
☮I will see you on Jan 5th, maybe even sooner
☮Happy Holidays sweet cheeks!

☮Yep, I may not be the best, maybe even the worst, but i shouldn't care.
☮Set the Fire to the Third Bar is the Song
☮Dec 23 is when it happened
☮Monkey Mikey Is awesome-I adore him more than i adore you now :P
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