The Dark Ones

The Dark Ones
This is a depiction of the first time I knowingly made contact with my internal cult created alter systems and associated internal landscape.
 
The woman in the collage is a representation of Becky, whose name was later changed to Rebecca. She called herself a "system liason". A kind of forward ambassador whose mission was to break through to me and start to make me aware of my true history that was split off from my awareness.
 
I met her in this internal library that looked like the one in the collage. She was actually sitting in the chair but I couldn't find the right image for the collage.
 
When I heard the words at that time, "The Dark Ones" I was filled with dread and anger that there was a whole terrible level of abuse that I was unaware of. I had been already dealing with memories of sexual abuse within the family for many years.
 
This suggested something far more sinister was at play here. How terribly right that was.

4 comments

    ElianaHephzibah
    ElianaHephzibah wrote 8 months ago
    Storm, I am wondering what you meant by saying you know where this place is? I would welcome whatever insights you may have.
    LJHomesteader~busy few comments
    LJHomesteader~busy few comments wrote 9 months ago
    Thank you so much for sharing this.....in our past, there was a lot about "libraries". These were at least sometimes called "lie-buries", for whatever the reason. Sometimes memories were supposed to be stored in hypnotically created "books", in which you were only to see the "cover stories", and never open them up. The covers looked like the false good memories, or perhaps actual good memories, which sandwiched the hidden amnesic memories. Sometimes we were told that the books contained wonderful things just like the covers, and other times, were told that they had such horrific things in them that we wouldn't want to ever face/see them. These bookshelves mean something important to me beyond all this, though, but can't put my finger on it right now. Excellent collage!!
    Julaine
    Julaine wrote 9 months ago
    That internal library looks so daunting, yet so full of the promise of knowledge to come.
    grace2244
    grace2244 wrote 9 months ago
    I'm glad you met Rebecca and in such a typically non-scary environment. Internal libraries are good. It's a kind of history containment. I know that wallop of finding another layer. I reeled from my first memories of f*ther abuse before the nightmares of chanting and graveyards. That led to research which helped me understand that next level. But emotionally, it was such a shock. The whole language was foreign to me. Finding the government level was the worst...when I realized the DID was deliberate. Thanks for sharing this memory and emotional impact. Because of this group, there are such interesting questions survivors could answer to make a book for others. Questions I never would have thought to ask. No one writes books about DID from the survivor perspective! I mean like a spectrum of individual experiences instead of one person's story. Cuz each person has a different story. Gosh I'm rambling. Your sharing how you first became aware of the ritual abuse would be a great question to share. How could we do that? Am throwing that out there for others in the group with DID.