serena woods-dawson - pretty wild reckless
do the panic - phantom planet
collab with @keziahh aka a really extraorinarily amazing person who i love <3
* * *
The pew was cold and hard against the back of my bare legs. Cold and hard, the way life seemed to be as of lately. It was too much, sitting in the church, watching my friends and family cry; watching them all fall apart around me was even worse.
I immediately regretted bringing small children to a funeral. Seeing everyone upset around them, and the harsh, powerful way that the pastor spoke was too much for Lucie and Peter to deal with. They, too, knew that something was very wrong.
I looked at Lewis’ face, avoid of emotion. He stared straight ahead, not looking at me or the pastor or even the casket. He just stared straight out the church window where things were better. In here, it was like we were trapped.
“Lewis,” I whispered quietly. “I’m going to take them outside for a minute. It’s too much for them in here.”
He nodded but didn’t say anything. I grabbed Lucie’s hand and picked up the handle of the baby carrier. All eyes were on me now, and wordlessly, I slipped out the back just as a woman began singing a song that was sure to make everyone’s eyes wet.
I set the carrier down on the grass and handed him a bottle. Lucie immediately began running around, smelling the flowers in the garden off the pathway. I spotted Adele coming out of the church doors that I had just exited and I waved her over.
“Hey Adele,” I breathed, standing to hug her tightly. It had been such a long time since we had seen each other, and fondly, I remember many times when we had hung out together back when we still all lived here in Eagle Bay. “It’s been way too long. How are you doing? I mean, besides…” I gestured to the church, where half of the Eagle Bay community was all mourning the loss of a dear friend.
She sniffled. “Well besides all…that, I’ve been really great. I’m due any day now. Did you hear that it’s a girl?” I could see the proud look on her face when she spoke of her soon-to-be daughter.
I smiled for her. “I’m so happy for you, hon. You deserve it. She’s going to be beautiful.”
“Thank you,” Adele said. “How about you? Your kids are growing up so fast. It seems like just yesterday you were pregnant with the first.”
I laughed, looking down at my two beautiful babies. “Tell me about it. Lucie is going to be turning two in a few months and Peter will be one at the end of the year. Time flies when you’re having fun, right?”
“It certainly does.” She said, but I saw the flicker in her eyes that we were both thinking about: the death of Johnny was a learning experience for all. It taught us how short life was and that we had to seize every moment. Carpe Diem. “Well, what do you say we get back in there, Serena?”
I nodded. “Come on, Luce. Back inside.” I picked up the carrier with a now sleeping Peter inside, and Lucie being the social butterfly she was, gripped onto Adele’s hand.
I pushed open the doors and a rush of cold air hit us. It was a shock from the warm outside air we had just been in. It was a change, kind of like the one we were going through now. As we took our seats, I think it set in for both of us that this wasn’t the happy, easy life that we once lived.
No, definitely not. Because that life, it was gone forever.
* * *
Comment 'new life' if you read!! Slowly but surely I'm getting these PWR stories up. Sorry it's taking so long. :-/