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YEAH YEAH
CUZ IM COMING BACK YAHH MOTHAAAHHFUU--

no i haven't been listening to explicit music very loudly during science class.


Okay that's a lie.
Mariana's Trench isn't explicit,
x3
There were like two swear words
in the entire album.

Ohh
It's payback is a motherfu...cker

Not I'm coming back motherfu....cker

heh. I knew that.

SORRY
I was just listening to Mariana's trench and working hard ( yes Hiroki was working ^_^) on my science and just all pumped because the music makes me all happy
and it makes you want to dance ^^

and it was pretty loud
because it blocks out the other kids annoyingness :3


And then i was like

best music eevaaaarrrr
-writing notes-

and then I realised that he had just screamed -lyric- MOTHERFU....CKER
and i was like
YEAHH--wait o.o
he just swore
wow i did not notice that
o.o
i should probably not be listening to that so loud 
or i might get in trouble


So that is why
that line
is stuck in my head
because it is a catchy part 
and yeah 
XD

Oh gosh my life is so amazing.

(The song by the way is called Desperate Measures by Mariana's Trench)



Here's my day in shorter form


: OUTFIT (guise outfits are important for girls it just is here. )

PINK HOLLISTER SHIRT
THAT SHOWS THE SHOULDERS
That i got when I was 11 from my neighbor
still wear it
I can't afford to buy a new one XD


Black skinny jeans

BOOTS




gosh i love this song.

ERM



Gym:

We got paired up

It was boy girl pairs
and i was like
NOOOOO.
and Cammie was like: NOOOOO.

So then the teacher read out the list

and i was like
o.o
luke or hi guy luke or hi guy luke or hi guy

(hi guy is really nice x3, and i like luke ._.)

teacher:
Cammie and Hi guy

Cammie: YESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me: NOOOOOOOOO


But instantly I knew that she was scared she was going to be paired up with some popular a$$h.ole too.


So then I got Maheed.

and Cammie patted my shoulder, and whispered, it's okay, Maheed is cool, he's nice.


And he was really nice ^-^
We didn't talk much
But he was really nice
and he's really good at badminton
and i answered his question

(Do you want to serve?)


Which counts
as talking to somebody new

SO HAH

PART ONE OF MY WEEKLY CHALLENGE DONE.

am i riiiiiiteeee or whaaat ;3


anyways ^^

I was kind of disappointed for nto getting paired up with luke :/

just asdfkljsaf
luke guise
sedklfjsadf
sawhy do i like him
hes a coow.


Science:
Worked on my project
worked hard on school ^-^
at first I was reading skulduggery pleasant
and grinning and snickering

well not snickering
i was giggling
but i dont want to say i was giggling
even though i probably was because
it sounds
so 
sdhglfsakhdfsakldf
asdf
T^T

and I look behind me to see where the teacher is

AND THERES LUKE

AND I WAS LIKE
O.O
I JUST GIGG--I MEAN LAUGHED MANLY----INFRONT OF LUKE

OH MY GOD.
HE PROBABLY THINKS
I WAS WANTING HIS ATTENTION
BY GIGGLING LOUDLY
(i mean laughing manly)
AND
I JUST TURNED AROUND
AND ACCIDENTLY LOOKED LIKE I WAS LOOKING AT HIM
AND NOW
JUST

AHHSHDOASLDKJFAS




See. how. socially awkwward I am at lifel

Oh yeah to make things better
I tripped over my headphones wire and dropped my walkman


-crash-
infront of luke
and his friend



T_T

so cool hiroki
so cool



Lunch: Spent a little time with Sheila and Bree
ate a few bites of my lunch
it was just iffy
so i didnt
just
iffy


and spent it freaking out
at bree and sheila
for the MEAN TRICK THEY PLAYED ON ME
and talked to geeeooorggggeee
BECAUSE he gave in
to the whole
ignore hiroki thing that he was doing
and wanted to know what they did


So guess what?


I was at my locker getting my lunch
when they pulled me aside
telling me not to hate htem
and that bree had something big to tell me


and she said:

Welll....

Me: What? ^-^ i want get mad :3


Her: Voldemort's friends with my brother (he's in highschooool)

Me: *screams * WHAT.

her: and he came over this weekend


me: *screaming on the top of my lungs really high pitched and grabbing bree and shaking her and screaming*
WHAT
WHAT
WHAT
WHAT
WHAAT.


kids around me
O_O OH my god.

like some popular girl was like
wow wtf is she screaming about

and woooow public disturbance

oh my god

INDOOR VOICES PLEASE


and i kept shrieking

and shes like
yeahhhh
and we're friends now

and i began screaming and spazzing and dying
and they were laughing

and she said
HE GAVE HER A HUG.


and i tackled her,

and gthen she told me
that it was all a lie
and she ran away

AND I WAS SO MAAD

well more like grinning and yelling
YOU'RE THE WORST


kind of mad

but still
OH MY GOD
I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE DID THAT TO ME.



ROAR.


xD

it was funny 

and I spent social doing a test
which i did okay
not terrible
not amazing

just okay
Like 60-70 %


Which is pretty fine with me actually :3


i tried my best
maybe i'll get an eighty :D

that would be cool *_*

but yeah
sixty seventy

^_^ 
its kind of
im not worried
i didn't feel it was bad
i just guessed randomly
but comftorably


ANYWAYYSSS


OH yeah
in gym

TROLL
CAME UP TO ME
and he was all like
Good JOb

and i was like.
o.e Good Job.
-_-

-really suspicious-

and he was like: no for the thing

and i was like o.o

him: For getting into the artschool

and i was like: O:
OH WOW THANKS :D

and he was like yeah you deserve it :]


and i was like o.O
Thanks :3

and then he asked a bit about the programme
and he was confused
and i tried to explain it
but he didn't get it 
but pretended too
and then went and flirted with some popular girl~

Well maybe not flirt
maybe just talk
but meh
he had the same intentions deeeeep down.




still
o.o
wut.



Anyways
that counts as TALKING TO SOMEBODY NEW
though i often talk to him
like rarely
but i have before out of forced conversations
so

STILL COUNTS THOUGH
CUZ ITS TROOLLL



(the guy who insulted my tintin calendar -.-)

So 2 OUT OF THREE NEW PEOPLE

on the first day

BOOYAH!

-highfives-

and worked hard in school
and I listened to my smiths cd
and I earned a badge.


LIKE A BOSS MY DEAR FRIENDS LIKE A BOSS.


sorry xD


This evening was really sad though :/
We had to present these things at our meetings.

and she did an assignment

and she talked about being different
and so on
and :/
 kids disapproving on how she dressed
and people on polyvore who are sad
and her music
and how she loves it so much
and how writing songs 
and so 
on

and she began to cry.


it was just.

really sad.

I -might- have cried too.


And when i got home I just became so frustrated
with people

Who just act like that

who can just come up to somebdoy
and ask them why they're different

why they're dressed different

they are the same kind of people 
who are blunt
and childish

I can picture so many examples i've met online

like the girl who commented on the @the-ch0sen-one's set about it being too dark and not deserving any likes
and why she would put it up on polyvore


god that made me so angry
just
NO.
Dark sets are allowed.
Any set

its expression
and it makes me sick
when people
act like
being different
is a disease.


I wanted to scream
and I wanted to yella t everybody on facebook
but people would get sick of my constant lectures on society being pathetic.

and I wanted to go to school
and scream at everybody in the class
and yell at them
and tell them it was their fault
for making molly cry.

but it wasn't.
and i need to start watching what I say
because 
if these things on polyvore upseted her

well then 
i know that i upset her
and i know that i now might have upset more than just her

and i need to stop 
doing that

just

i feel
so 
terrible
for not being able to protect her from that.

and i feel sick
about making this about me

when its not

but i just.
didn't want her to go through that
and i just 
wanted to keep her naive
and i just
didn't wnat
her
to be picked on
and i felt like i couldn't protect her -___-
and that sounds cheesy
because it is. -_-
but all the same
that upset me :/


So get ready

tomorrow 
I'm revolting.



I'm gonna fight.
for molly.
for
everybody.
hwo just.
no.


I'M GONNA GET UP THERE
AND IM GONNA DO SOMETHING
IM GONNA TELL EVERYBODY OFF
AND RANT
AND JUST
NO.
IM GONNA FIGHT


Goodnight :D
-Hiroki