Every now and then I fall apart.

Jessie, NYCS
 
Friday - school prank
 
"I can't believe Soph is coming back today!!" Ar sighed sipping her coffee
"I know, it seems so long since we last saw her" Lex added
"Right.." Jess said giving me a signifficant look which was supposed to mean something about Seb I guess.
I shrugged and kept walking with the girls to school.
"Finally its friday!" Cam said
"I know, this week seemed to last forever with those Russian brides on our backs" Mace sighed
We finally arrived to school, Jess leading all of us.
"Oh. My" she mumbled as her eyes opened wider and wider
We all hurried to see what she had already seen. Our school filled with toilet paper and horse s.hit.
"those bittches!" Mace yelled
"We clerly have to teach them a lesson" Ar smirked
.....
 
We were sneaking into the rival school, our hands full of ammunitions when my phone buzzed inside my Gucci bag.
"Jessie!" Mace whispered "We said no phones!"
"I know, sorry I jus forgot to switch it off"
I took the phone out. It could be important.
I read: 1 new text from soph
*Can you please pick me up at the airport? Please don't tell anyone that I'm back.*
"Sh.it" I mumbled
"What?" Jess raised her eyebrows
"Nothing I just.. I have to go"
"What? No! You are gonna miss the best part!" Cam whispered
"I know. Just kick some asses for me, will you?"
"They won't know what hit them" Ar smirked
I sneaked out of the school and to my car.
I drove quickly to the airport. I had a terrible headache. I though about the kiss with Levi, Seb gone, Liam gone, Soph back, just everything.
I parked the car and got down to wait for my friend.
"Jessie!" she smiled at me "thank you for coming, I didn't know who else to call"
"You're welcome baby" I winked at her and we both took our seats on the car "you could have called Lex or Ar" I frowned. Something was going on with Soph, I could tell it for the look on her eyes.
"For tonight I wanna be alone" she whispered turning on the stereo "and I knew you wouldn't have asked me anything"
"I'm Miss conspiracy of silence" I laughed and turned the music louder. Sh.it we looked like two depressive middle age ladies "where are we going?"
Take me to a dealer" she muttered awkwardly
"I thought you were done with cocaine"
"I was" Soph shrugged.
"And what about the deal you made with Jake?"
"Do you mean the 'or me or cocaine' deal? It sounded more like a threat actually"
"Yep, that" I nodded.
"It's doesn't matter anymore"
I thought about it for a second. If I said no she would go and get it anyway. Maybe if I went with her I could at least take care of her.
"I could use some cocaine myself..." I sighed "Ok. But its just one time only thing, right?" I asked hopefully, tho I already knew the ansewr. It wasn't.
Soph nodded and looked away, turning the music even louder, so now if I tried to say anything she could pretend like she didn't hear me.
We went to a dealer and got some good drugs. Then I drove to Soph's place and parked in front of the building. We both got down of the car.
"Um Jessie..." Soph looked at me awkwardly. I know she didn't want me to stay
"I wanna stay.. just in case. But I promise you won't see me or hear me."
"Ok" she nodded and we both went upstairs.
Soph took some of the drugs and went straight to her room. I just sat at the livingroom, playing with the small plastic bag on my hands, thinking wether I just take it or not. Last time I did it, I ended up in hospital. But then again.. all I wanted now was to forget. I slowly opened the plastic bag, still doubtfull. I stared at tthe white powder for some seconds hesitantly. "Stupid, stupid, stupid" I mumbled to my self and ran to the bathroom, throwing the contents of the bag inside the toilet and flushing it all away. My hands were shaking.
I looked around the bathroom. It was Seb's bathroom. I went into his room. Some of his stuff were still there. I grabbed a white shirt and hugged it for a while until I calmed down a bit. Then I decided to go check up on Soph, sonce everything was silent.
She had fallen asleep with her cell on her hand. I grabbed it and went back to Seb's room, laying on his bed.
I dialed his number.
"Soph, you shouldn't call me to this number" he whispered
"Seb.." my eyes filled with tears
"Jessie?"
"You where right. I screwed up" I sobbed
"What happened?"
"Liam and I had a fight so he went to London and I kissed Levi"
"Oh.."
"Come on Seb. I know you are dying to say 'I told you so'.."
"I was't right J. I mean.. he ran off as soon as the thing got a little bit rough. He'll forgive you if you tell him"
"He won't.." I whiped some tears from my face
"He will. trust me. I have to go now. Its dangerous"
"Seb wait!"
"What?"
"I miss you" I whispered
"I miss you too babe"
 
xx,
Jessie