[collab with the super sweet @christi!!!]
"Can you go change Carson's diaper babe?" I asked David, kissing the baby's head and trying to calm him. His whimpers were getting louder and I knew it wouldn't be long before he was full out crying. Plus, he smelled terrible.
He nodded, reaching down to take him from my hands, along with the diaper bag. "Sure."
"Thank you," I gave him a weak smile. I still couldn't get Johnny off my mind, and I think that David still knew I was a little on edge. He had been tiptoeing around me this whole trip. But honestly, I didn't mind. I didn't have the energy to deal with relationships.
Right as David walked away, Nel came over and sat down next to me. "Hey Dais," She said with a smile.
I mustered one back. "Oh, hey Nel." As unenthusiastic as I was about having to socialize with everyone, it was really nice to see Nel. She had definitely been one of my favorite girls from Eagle Bay.
"It sucks that we have to go home tomorrow," She sighed and I glanced at her, her face showing that she wasn't just trying to make conversation, but really thought so too. And, while I wished that we hadn't come here for the reason we had, I agreed that going home tomorrow wasn't really something I was looking forward to. It was nice to see everyone.
"I know, I nodded in agreement. "We should do this more often. I miss you guys all, you, Jana, Quinn."
"We're only a phone call away," She smiled, and I didn't even bother getting offended at the possible dig at the fact that we'd lost contact. It was true, I hadn't reached out.
"I know that," I nodded once again. "You get so wrapped up in your life sometimes, though. You just forget that there are other people that."
"I know what you mean," She answered with a sigh as her eyes fell on Trent across the room. "So, how are you and David?"
"Great," I answered with a smile. Me and David had been almost perfect lately.
"Good, I always knew you too would be together. And now you've got Addison and Carson," She grinned.
"Yeah, I've been really lucky," I told her, and as I said it, I could feel myself light up. I was finally so happy with things and even though this Johnny thing was hitting me hard, I was still happier than I had been ever. I didn't even think kids were going to be in my future... and now I was lucky enough to have two healthy and gorgeous kids all for myself.
"Daisy- nevermind." She stopped herself from whatever she was about to say.
"This might be weird, but after everything this week I can't help but look back at things. I know you and Poppy aren't exactly the best of friends, but I just wanted you to know that I'm here for you if you ever need anything."
I looked down at the ground, biting my lip before glancing back at Nel. I always felt so ridiculous when people told me they were "there for me". For some reason, I got the feeling that it meant I had been shutting them out before. But then again, I guess I really had been shutting Nel out.... I had shut everyone except for David out. It was just my nature.
I put a smile on my face, "Thank you. And I'm here for you too, whenever," I began, sighing. "I know I haven't always been the best friend for everyone, but you have to understand that it's just how I am. But really, anything you need, just give me a call."
She smiled right back, "I will."
"How are things with you and Trent?"
"We still have our fights here and there, but for the most part, great," She said, her smile falling from her face and making me wonder if she was being honest.
"Are you sure about that?" I laughed at the face she had made. Something had made her change her mind about that statement.
"Yeah, it's just that I need to tell him something. I just don't know how," She sighed heavily, like whatever it was had been weighing down on her.
"Is something wrong?"
"No- I don't know, maybe?" She said, confused.
"Well whatever it is, just tell him. The longer you wait, the harder it's going to be," I shrugged.
"I guess. I'm just, nervous," She told me, her face showing just how true that was.
I nodded understandingly. I definitely got the whole nervousness from keeping secrets. "Well, from experience I can promise you that it won't help to keep quiet."
"I'll tell him... I just have to build up the courage," She laughed a little, like it was ridiculous that she couldn't tell him.
"Or you could be like me and just hide it until it comes out and everyone gets pissed," I smirked, causing her to laugh. I was just joking, but it was pretty true... I definitely didn't have the best way of handling situations.
"I don't ever remember getting pissed off at you.... so you can't say everyone."
I shrugged. I guess that was true. Me and Nel had never had problems with each other... in fact, she had probably been one of my closest friends in Eagle Bay. Though that didn't say much with the friends I had. "That's true."
"Yeah, so-" "Mom, can I have a cookie?" Addison ran up, interrupting what Nel was going to say. "Hmm, I don't know." "Please," She asked, a warm smile plastered on her face. "Fine, but just one," I gave in. Sometimes, she was just way too cute to say no to. "She is too adorable," Nel grinned at me.... and god, I knew it. "Thanks." I smiled. "I hope that I have a girl- I mean, when I have kids." She stopped herself.. but not before I caught it. Was Nel pregnant?! I couldn't help but have my eyes fall to her stomach. "Nel," I gave her a knowing look "Are you? You're pregnant!" I whispered excitedly. "Yeah," She said, a huge smile falling on her face. "Oh my God, is this the secret you're so afraid to tell Trent?" "Yes, we've never even talked about having kids. I'm not sure if he'll like the news." She bit her lip.
I honestly didn't even know how to react. A part of me was ridiculously excited, and the other part was just shocked. "How could he not be? Congratulations!" I exclaimed loudly.
She laughed, quieting me, "Don't say it too loud.. no one really knows yet," She told me, but she was smiling wide too. It was obvious that even despite her worries about Trent's reaction, she was happy about being pregnant. That didn't surprise me though, it mustn't have been the easiest thing for Nel to watch all of her friends get married and have kids while her and Trent didn't.
"Right," I bit my lip. "Sorry. But I take back what I said before, you definitely have to tell him... and no waiting. A small secret can be put off, but not one like that. Plus, i'm sure you'll start showing soon!" My voice raised a little again. I couldn't help it... I looked kids and definitely wouldn't mind having another one around next time our friends got together.
"I know I shouldn't wait.... but what if he doesn't want a child, Daisy?" Her face fell again.
"I can't promise you he'll be happy, but if he loves you like I think he does, i'm sure his reaction won't be as bad as you're thinking."
"But we're not even married Daisy!" She said with a sigh.
I shrugged, "So what. A lot of people aren't married when they have a child and they're perfectly happy."
"I don't know...."
"Nel, I get that you're scared, but you have to tell him."
She sighed, "You're right, I will."
She nodded, giving me a weak smile, "As soon as I get the chance."