So yeah, death sucks.
We drove up to my Aunties Funeral on FRiday, it took about 11 hours, and then back down on Sunday. It was completely horrible, Saturday, and the first Funeral I have ever been to. Except for Guinea Pig's ones, but those weren't proper.
I miss her so much. But she is way happier now, Im sure. Healthier, right? She was 82, or maybe 83. And with her her Husband; I ahve to keep telling myself that.
I was tagged by: @fashionandfurious
Tagggg. The usual rule. I tag you, you tag me back and tag some other folks.
Have you ever:
• 1) Self harmed?
• 2) Got into a real fight?
• 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
• 4) Tried to commit suicide?
• 5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?
• 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
• 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
• 8) Accused someone of using you?
• 9) Shoplifted?
• 10) Gotten drunk/high?
• 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
• 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
(Right now) Are you:
• 13) Sui.cidal?
• 14) Bored?
Kinda. But its Polyvore :)
• 15) Avoiding someone?
Not at this very moment
• 16) Avoiding some task?
Probably. Always, right?
• 17) Depressed?
Donjt think so, no.
• 18) Crying?
• 19) Annoyed with a friend?
• 20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
Yes. Of course, Im 14, I think everyone basically is, except monks.
• 21) Get depressed easily?
Sort of, not exactly.
• 22) Get jealous/envious easily?
• 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?
• 24) Worry about messing up your relationships a lot?
Yeah, but not romantic ones, only friends, I;ve never been in a romantic relationship :(
• 25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
enough to get A's and B's
Yep, but we get graded differently. hehe yeah last year I got top of my year, which is awesome :P **show off get off the computer**
• 26) Go out drinking?
• 27) Smoke cigarettes?
• 28) Smoke weed?
• 29) Do any hard dru.gs?
• 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?
• 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?
Not exactly, no, but I do feel kind of lost with out one. Buddhism? If any Buddhist is reading this message me. Info or something. :)
• 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
• 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
• 34) Believe people deserve second chances?
Yeah, pretty much.
• 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)
Sometimes I suppose, but not exactly.
• 36) Think things will get better?
Yeah, always, for everyone.
• 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
• 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)
I try not, I think I may have used to a bit, but hopefully not anymore, at all.
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
• 39) Long hair OR short hair?
• 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?
smile, unless they were born horrifically muntified, then abs.
• 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?
• 42) Shy OR open?
definitely both, but I immediately warm to anyone who is shy, like me.
• 43) Eyes OR body?
• 44) Religious OR non-religious?
"I couldn't care less but I lean more towards non-religious" thats what @fashionandfurious said and i agree :)
• 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?
uhhmm, I've never had any experience, but I think Id prefer caring. but not too much.
• 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
No drugs, only legal ones, but.. yeah, drinking ok, smokking....Not sure.
• 47) Piercings OR no piercings?
• 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?
• 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
Probably stay at home...nahh, both. But they have to like staying at home, and do it often.
• 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?
• 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
No, well,probably in the future but yeah.
• 52) Smoke weed?
• 53) Smoke cigarettes?
• 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
• 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
Yeah, but then, whos knows? I've never been in a relationship so.
• 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?
• 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?
Not sure, because the older you get, the more you learn, about the world, whats right, whats wrong, or just what is better in different ways. So I cant really say.
• 58) Join a band as a part time activity?
Kinda already have, just for school and stuff.
• 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcoh.ol/drug abuse?
• 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?
• 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?
I've been a vegetarian since I was 5ish.
• 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
• 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
Yeah. Not air brush though.
• 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
• 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a b.itch to other people?
Maybe accidently. but I'd try not to.
• 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
• 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?
• 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
• 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?
No, probably not.
• 70) Sleep naked?
You can only choose one:
• 71) Black or Orange?
• 72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore?
Im sorry, I cant really tell the difference, I dont exactly know. Dont disown me!
• 73) Cellphone or Computer?
• 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?
Chocolate milk...neither I think.
• 75) Tumblr OR Friends?
• 76) Apple OR PC?
• 77) TV Shows OR Movies?
• 78) Old bands OR new Bands?
Buhhhm, both? yeah.
• 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?
• 80) Reading OR Listening to music?
• 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice.
Neither, Uhm, they are fulled with sugar?
• 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?
Staying me, but I still want to improve me, make me a better, nicer, kinder, smarter person.
• 83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?
• 84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice.
Kellin Quinn. I just googled both of them and he was the hottest?
• 85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice.
• 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?
• 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?
Europe most definitely, anyday. Oh. my darling, one day you will be mine, sweet, history filled continent!
• 88) Shoes OR Shirts?
• 89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence?
• 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice.
Stay in school; because then I can get a better job, open to more opportunities, see my friends everyday, learn so much!
• 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fu.ck sake be honest.
Yes, I THINK so haha. yeah.
• 92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?
Yeah, pretty much.
• 93) Do you want to travel when you are older?
YES, ALL THE TIME,, EVERYWHERE, OMG
• 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
it Depends on the ddream, the person etc.
• 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?
Not until now.
• 96) Rather be the opposite gender?
• 97) What will you name your son/daughter?
• 98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?
• 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
I wouldnt say I HATED bands but that is because I havent really met any.
• 100) What makes a bad person in your mind?
Someone who is selfish, likes hurting people, mean, ignores the suffering, and selfish doesnt only mean themselves, but people who only care for their family and stuff, not for the peeps whos suffering is far greater than their own has ever been.