I honestly believed in you.

Hey. I don't really have much of a need to say this right now but I think it's important to myself. If you aren't interested in the fail that is my life then you may just go back to looking at pretty sets with flowers and daisy chains in them.
 
Right now in this space of time I'm at the point where I don't know what I want from my life. I don't know where I'm going or how I'm going to ever get there. I have big dreams. I always have done since I was a little kid. I'd tell my mum I wanted to be a fashion designer one week and the next I'd want to be a vet. I'd dream of having my own house in a big city with someone who really and truly loved me for who I am. I'd have a lovely house that I'd decorate with pink flowers and fairy lights and we would sit and watch out favorite films until we fell asleep.
To be honest I still dream of that. Because I know one day, one day I'll get there and it'll all be fine. I live a happy life.
But there's so much stopping right now. Rewind to the present time. I started taking my gcse's a week ago now and I'm already doubting myself horribly. I have no thought in my mind telling me that I'll be able to pass and get to where I want to be. Not one. And that really haunts me. I just want to leave and get on with my life as soon as I turn 18. I want to live in London in a modern apartment and be able to cook and clean and revise for my a-levels. That what I want to do. I want to go on the train to work in my blazer and high heels with a cup of coffee and laptop. I can see myself doing that. And I know if I want to be that person I have to work my very hardiest at school and college. That's going to be hard for me. I hate the idea of school. Yeah, I have the best time in the world with my friends but when It comes to class I just give up on my whole lesson. I tell myself I can't do it when I probably could but I just can't face that right now. I feel as though I have to try and pay attention every single minute of the day If I want to be successful in life. I have to pass my gcse's and I have to get a good paying job. I have to leave home by the age of 18 and I have to get everything right.
Maybe I do, maybe I don't. I know I'll make a lot of mistakes along the way but if gets me to the place I want to be I'll do anything. I'm sure you would to.
My life has just started to change for the better. I have a platform to know where I'm going to go in life, I have friends who will stay with me for life and a loving family who support me. What more could I ever want?
 
I've changed in 2 years. 2 years ago I was a massive idiot. I was so thick and had no idea what I was doing. I understand life now as though it's one massive game. I want to go far in life. Who doesn't? Maybe I'm wishing for too much but if It keeps me positive and a happy person I'll think that.
 
' Sometimes I am happy for just one moment. In that one moment I don't think about my problems, I think about all the options I have. I think about all the years ahead of me, I think about all the awesome people I will meet, I think about all the great ideas I will get. I think about all the adventures, about love, about all the places that I am yet to discover.
For that one moment I believe I will be happy one day. I know happiness is out there.
I have hope."

8 comments

lululovesyou
Wrote 4 years ago
Thank you so much @jellymuffin0611 <3 I hope I will do alright x Thank you. No you didn't, it's fine x I appreciate it :)

jellymuffin0611
Wrote 4 years ago
@lululovesyou this is a beautiful collection!! the quotes are inspiring and touching!! And i read the intro.... hang on there girl... you'll do just beautifully... you know what you want and you're working towards it... just keep that up... Cheers! :) (Hope i didnt overstep boundaries with what i said.)

lululovesyou
Wrote 4 years ago
Thank you @kattariina x There really nice aren't they :)

kattariina
Wrote 4 years ago
wow... those quotes are so inspiring and beautiful, I really like them.. :D

lululovesyou
Wrote 4 years ago
Thank you @milla-starinac and @fashionandfurious x

im-hopeless-but-hoping
Wrote 4 years ago
AMAZING COLLECTION!

milla-starinac
Wrote 4 years ago
Great collection! :D

ballerinagal16
Wrote 4 years ago
"I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who [a]infuses inner strength into me; I am [b]self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency]." - Philippians 4:13

101 likes


Love this look? Get more styling ideas

Continue
×