01/18/13- Soooooo confused and just feeling such mixed feelings about bf right now. Tryin not to worry and all but some things are seeming strange or something I dunno if it is me or him or both of us I don't think it is just in my head and I want to trust that if there is something he wants to say to me that he will say it. I really miss him again even though it's been less than a day since I saw him I don't understand that either I hope I'm not insane but am wondering if I am :( I don't think he misses me as much as I miss him though and that makes me really really sad :( I hope things become clearer soon and that things will be ok. I dunno what I'll do if they aren't. I'll be so sad if I've done something to ruin something so precious and rare as this I definitely won't get another chance at this ever again I don't think I'm not nearly pretty enough. I kinda hate that I care about this stuff again it is so hard.