Landslide | Fleetwood Max
Romantic Vintage Ballet Flats - Le Bunny Bleu
I've been listening to "Landslide" on repeat and it's making me quite nostalgic.
My little brother is going to be turning 13, which shouldn't be happening. I'm going to be 17 next year. I can't even imagine what that's going to be like. You know how everyone romanticizes an age? Whenever I played teenagers I wanted to be 13, then in middle school I wanted to be 17. I remember listening to "Seventeen Forever" by Metro Station on repeat. Now I'm going to be that age soon and it doesn't seem like I should be.
I'm going to miss the days that seem so long ago. When I was three playing dress up, six making people call me cat queen, ten ruling Neopets. I don't know what age it was but everyone has the realization that they're alive, like this is life and I've been living it. I mean when you're 5 or 6 you still don't really understand anything, but then you turn 9 or 10 and suddenly you realize you're this tiny spec in the grand scheme of things.
On the one hand I can't wait to live in a tiny dorm room in New York or a flat in London or Paris or wherever I end up for college. But on the other I'm going to miss my mother brushing my hair, getting away with wearing a tutu and tiara to school, and when being a princess seemed like a reasonable career path.
I'm sixteen and I already feel as if it's too late to live.