i told the guy i've loved for years that i love him, but with each day that goes by, every degree that the temperature drops by, each second a day looses, is a second i loose without /him/. Not the guy i said i loved, but this other guy. he's leaving, and i dont think i'll be able to take that kind of hurt, again. i cant face somebody i love this strongly, this much, leaving me again. and this time its not some silly infatuation, he doesn't make me sad like the man who left before. This guy makes me really, really happy and i don't even care i'm not with him, that we don't talk sometimes all week, because just thinking about him, or even seeing him makes me so happy. I mean, we passed eachother today, and i swear i wanted to hug him. he pulled a face at me, and i stuck out my tongue, and he smiled, and i smiled, and i was so, so happy. i love him. is it possible to love two people at once? I don't know. I'm so confused.