a - team// ed sheeran (birdy's cover is splendid as well)
So going to rant and tell y'all a little story because I'm extremely upset and this is the only place I can talk about it
Okay, so about a week ago I posted something on Tumblr that I shouldn't have.
It was a rant about one of my good friend, whom I was upset with for some her actions on Sunday night.
I said rude, terrible things that I feel incredibly guilty about.
Of course she saw it, but at the time she apologized for her actions. I thought we were good; I thought we had moved on.
I guess my words really hurt her, though.
And I didn't know, so I didn't end up apologizing until four days later.
But within those four days she basically told everyone what I said and made me seem like I was a cruel heartless bi.tch.
And at the time I totally know that that's what I was being,
but I personally don't think she should've spread it around like that.
But I let it go.
I cleared my consciousness.
But even though she said all was forgiven,
I keep hearing that she's spreading things about me.
And she tweets all these vauge things I know are aimed at me and it honestly hurts.
I don't know what else to do.
I've made my amends,
but yet I'm still the bad guy.
So what do I do?
I don't want to accept that we're not friends but at this point it looks like that's what's going to end up happening.
Ugh it just sucks.
And all of her friends that I'm not super close with keep glaring at me all the time and I just want to cry.
I've said my sorry.
But no one will forgive me.
I understand what I did was horrible,
and I'm not in any way condoning what I said,
but I'm trying so hard and it seems like no ones giving me a chance.
Just su.cks, you know?