This is my love life. Romance has never worked for me. I currently love a boy. This is me trying to tell him but... I'm not sure I have the guts to. I hope this tells him everything I feel for him. Because for me, my smile with him is real but not the way I tell him I feel. Some times it must seem that I stalk you. The only time I don't come near you is when you're with her. When you're with him, I give you some space but with her, it's like I can't come near you at all. If you ever gave me your hoodie or let me borrow it, I'd say I'd lost it. Because I couldn't help but want to keep it. When we first met, I didn't seem to care about hugging you but now I don't ever do. It's cuz back then my heart beat fast when I touched you and now I'm scared to. I also punch you, kick you, and smack you over the head. I'm not trying to hurt you. I just don't what else to do because being with you is like singing in front of the whole school on a day I'm mute. And have you ever wondered why some times I say nonsense or so little to you? Why it took me so long to talk to you? It's because I'm scared. Here's my heart. Please don't hurt it. I'm not sure I could forgive you if you did. And I have enough struggles as it is. So the next time you see me, just give me a kiss. Or tell me flat out to get lost. So that maybe I can try my best to get over you. Only... I think that's a battle I've already lost.