△June 30th - Today everyone is going to write something nice about their friends, write the persons name on an envelope and leave it hanging on a branch. Wander aorund Wonderland and see if there are any envelope's with your name on it. They must all be anonymous.
"How many letters did you get?" asked Paulie excitedly as he joined me in my garden.
"Mmmm I don't know. I didn't get any," I said and smiled. I continued to water my flowers and glanced up at him to see his reaction.
"You mean no one wrote you any?" he asked, surprised.
"I don't know. I didn't check. I already know I'm amazing, I don't need other people to tell me," I joked. That was atleast partially true. I had collected mine, but I didn't read any. Once I found out Kevin hadn't written me one, I tore up all the letters and threw them on the floor. Now I had a pile of paper confetti to accompany the accumulated glitter gathered on my floor.
"Is it Kevin again?" Paulie asked quietly. I shook my head and blinked back tears. I inhaled deeply and exhaled my sadness. Then I forced myself to smile.
"I'll be fine," I said and waved away his question.
He studied my face, but I turned away to avoid looking at him. "Here, come with me," he said and took the watering can out of my hand and set it on the ground. "I wanna show you something." Then he pulled me forward and before I knew it we were running down a winding dirt trail through the dark woods. We kept running until we were both out of breath and panting. "We're almost there," Paulie said, "Just a little ways around the bend" he pointed to a curve in the path. I nodded and we walked forward breathlessly. "Right through here," Paulie said and plunged into a thick clump of bushes. I followed him the best I could as thick branches scratched my legs and got caught up in my feet.
"AAHHH!" I yelped as I tripped over a thick root hidden deep under the mangled bushes. Paulie turned around just in time for me to come crashing into him. "Sorry," I muttered and blushed. He started laughing and soon I joined in.
"Come on," he said and reached down and picked me up. Then he proceeded to carry me the rest of the way. "Here we are," he announced and set me back on my feet, his hand lingering on me longer than I would have liked. I looked out and an open meadow filled with wildflowers stretched as far as I could see. The sun shone overhead, turning the grass a soft gold. A warm wind blew passed me through the grass, causing it to sway and dance.
"Do you wanna go check it out?" he whispered. I nodded wordlessly and allowed him to lead me to the edge of the field. We began to wade through the waist-high weeds, into the unknown. The stalks tickled my legs and more than once I had to stop myself from jumping up and down with annoyance.
"Here it is," breathed Paulie as he led me into a small clearing with matted down grass and a sprinkling of wildflowers. I laid down, surrounded by tall grass and bright blossoms. Paulie laid down next to me and we stared up at the bright blue sky. I could feel his gaze on me, but I ignored it. Soon though, I felt the heat of his body draw nearer, but I didn't move. His breath tickled my cheek, but I hoped he wouldn't do what was inevitable. His face loomed over me, illuminated by the sun and he leaned down and kissed me ever so gently on the lips. I surprised myself by kissing him back. Soon his arms were wrapped around me, pulling me closer as he kissed my face, my cheeks, my neck. With every kiss, my need to be loved was filled, but not by the person I had hoped. We lay there, arms entwined, the sun beating down on us, and my heart still broken.