Today is April 2nd, 2012.
This date probably doesn't mean much to most people, besides all the ones who their Birthdays, some foreign holiday, and anniversaries at the moment.
And to all of you who's today date means something special, well I congratulate you. I'm happy to see that the world is filled with some love and anything else but hate.
And as for me. well today was just another ordinary day, infarct it as horrible. But Today last year, well... that's a different story.
You see it's one of the moments that see in a movie or read in a book, or want to be in a movie or read in a book. It's one of those memories I'll forget and take with me to the grave.
And so on April 2nd, 2011
it wasn't just a normal or average day, oh no. It has be one the greatest moments of my life. It was something I had never felt so happy to be alive for, it was the day I knew goods would change forever and for good, for that day... was the Day I met the girl of my dreams.
It was the day, I started to fall so so so much for her, not in a creepy way, but in a way that makes you think you're at the top of the world, and from that day forward, I'd have moments that none of the my problems or the problems of the world matter.
Although troubles at home did really effect me afterward, well on that day, nothing else but being right there next to her, mattered.
And besides all the kissing, laughing, hugging and flirting. Even if I was born with no lips, no sense of humor, had no arms and legs, and have the will of a sacred monk. to resist all temptation. Her just being there with me was enough. She was all I really needed and all I ever wanted.
And her name? It's Andi, Andrea, Bree, Charlotte. Pick a name, it doesn't really matter, look up her name in a dictionary and it will define her beauty that of a goddess.
I suppose the rest of the world would label her as my "ex" but f**k what they think, who gives a damn? I certainly don't. She means more to than an "ex" or a "former lover." She's more than that to me, I've dated others before her, them I can consider "ex's." but her, no she's different. because wasn't just another pretty face, she wasn't just another girl in my life. Her name is Andrea, and she was also my best friend.
And just because we aren't together anymore doesn't mean I still can't love her. I say screw the rules, what everyone else says, This is my heart, and my soul, I choose what I want to do with it, not this tasteless, hollow world that's filled with hate.
And even though me and her aren't together anymore. I'm not sad anymore, the pains gone. Although I'll feel down from time to time, whenever I feel how much I really miss her, yea I'll let the sorrow come in for a little, but I then I remember her smile, and those cherish-able memories and that wash's the sadness away, you need to be sad in order to be happy anyway.
And as for trying to get her back, well.... not doing so good right now. In fact she probably thinks I've given up on her. nah, I haven't, that's not the case. I've just retreated for now, retreated so I can pick myself up, and come back even stronger.
But of course running over to her house like an idiot, and singing her a serenade isn't the best plan, no. I'd only end up annoying her, and causing more drama between us... Plus her family would probably call the cops on me or something. Not that I mind, but I don't want to interrupt their daily lives like a fool.
So in the end I have no idea what I should do....and my lack of high self-esteem kills me, and the man who thought he knew everything about love, doesn't know what to do.
I need help....