My mom died in July 2008, and it's hitting me really hard right now. Last year I avoided the intensity of the holiday season by taking a magical trip overseas with my boyfriend. This year, without the same distraction, I'm confronted with loneliness. My mom was my whole family, and without her I feel like my life is so empty. No one called me on Christmas day; no one mailed me a present. Other people are celebrating and I'm feeling hopeless -- I can't just go out and buy a new family at the store. 26 is far too young to feel this way. Thanks, polyvore friends, for letting me vent these difficult feelings through creativity.