“Uh. Annyeonghaseyo!” I bowed to Zsuzsi just as soon as she opened the door. She greeted me and let me follow her inside where I saw Kris and Lay. I continued to greet them formally with a perfect 90 degree bow.
My nerves were seriously killing me.
“It’s okay.” Zsuzsi laughed. “You don’t have to act like a stranger.” She showed me to my seat, right across from Kris. I then gave him a “I-can’t-believe-you’re-making-me-do-this” face. But he just responded with his usual bit*ch face.
I have to thank Zsuzsi who was really trying to lighten the mood. She just talked about simple things like the food or school. I don’t know why Kris had to be so quiet. It’s like he was just waiting for me to spill the beans already! I didn’t want to do it just yet though. I mean.. we should wait at least until dessert...
“Hey baby I am back!” I heard someone shout from the front door. Who was that??!?
Zsuzsi quickly jumped from her seat and ran over there. I looked at both of the boys faces before attempting to ask who that was. Lay had a worried look on his face and Kris simply shook his head and rolled his eyes.
I’m not sure what was going on with Zsuzsi and that other girl but it sounded like they were arguing. Did I come at a bad time?
“Jia wait!” Zsuzsi called after her before we heard the slamming of the door. So now it was just me, Lay, and Kris. Perfect.
“Sh-should I leave?” I asked.
“Don’t worry, it’s not your fault.” Lay simply replied.
“Not her fault!?” Kris snapped at Lay.
Before Lay could reply I interrupted him. I think it was finally time to confess...
“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean to make you believe I was dating Kris. I’m really not. We just keep meeting by accident. And sure yeah, since it’s obvious I like him I didn’t want to say anything. I didn’t mean to act so selfish...” I didn’t want to talk anymore. I felt a lump in my throat and thought if I said anything more I would just burst into tears. Instead I just got up from my seat and headed to the door.
I quickly glanced back at the boys before leaving. Lay muttered “Noona’s going to kill you.” to Kris, who had his head buried in his hands.
And there I soon left the house, with no one stopping me. I really felt like shi*t. I started to cry just as soon as I closed the door. And that really sucked because I couldn’t see a thing! My eyes were blurry from the tears. How pathetic is that? I became so frustrated that I sat at the closest bench to wipe my eyes.
I was sad but at the same time so angry. I mean, this wasn’t my entire fault! If Kris really didn’t want to be involved in this lie he could have put a little more effort in telling his members the truth. He didn’t have to be so nice to me to make me BELIEVE he was interested in me! I should have said that! I should have told Kris off and punched him in the face!
“Whaaaat.” I had my head in my hands so I couldn’t see the person’s face. But from the sound of his deep voice, I already knew it was Kris.
“Hey.” He shook my shoulder. I looked at him with my own bit*ch face. Only this bit*ch face was covered in smeared eye makeup.
Kris handed me a tissue.
“WHAT DO YOU WANT?” I asked while yanking the tissue from his hand.
“Can you forgive me?”
“I’m being serious!” He said.
“So was being nice all this time a joke?” I snapped back.
“No. I was serious then too.”
“Well you obviously f*ucked up since you made your girlfriend jealous.”
“Um. Jia, duh.”
“She’s not my girlfriend.”
“Well then quit making girls fall in love with you! Ugh. You’re p*issing me off right now!”
“Ya! I said I’m sorry!”
“Fine then! Leave!”
“I just didn’t want to lie anymore, okay?”
“Well, the truth is out already! You can live your life again!”
“But... I still want to see you.”
“What? What is that supposed to mean?”
“I still want to see you.” He repeated.
“Like what? At fanmeets? I still like Exo but Luhan will be my bias now..” I mumbled.
“No babo!” He laughed.
“Then what? Just friends?”
“Sure.” He smiled.
But Kris knows that I liked him. Er.. still like him? Isn’t it obvious that I would want to be more than ‘just friends’?
“Is that okay?”
“Uh.. sure.” I caved in. “Just stop me if I try to fall in love with you again.”
“I’ll try...” He laughed.
Well, too late. Because now I’m falling hard. Again.