i turned on the camera and sat down with a sigh. although i didn't think anyone would ever see this, i was nervous. /maybe that's what my parents thought when they revealed their secrets thirty years ago/, i thought.
i took a deep breath before saying, "a few weeks ago, when i found out about my parents secrets, i started drinking. and i mean, really drinking. whole bottles of vodka a night, for instance." i felt tears well up in my eyes at the shame i felt. "my parents don't realize because my mother is just as heavy drinker as i'm becoming. i'm afraid that i'll become an acoholic, like her. and i don't want to make the same horrible choices as her." i paused before saying the last thing, "i would never want to be like her. ever." i stood up and shut the camera off. i walked out of the little room and went back to my day.