"I think your mouth should be quiet 'cause it never tells the truth."

+Scene Five - With Ears to See and Eyes to Hear by Sleeping With Sirens
 
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I just want a cute boy who will go to concerts and cuddle with me. I don't think that's too much to ask for.
 
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How do you pronounce your name?
Uh...it rhymes with 'patty.' I'm bad at sounding out words and names.

Thought about an ex today?
I don't have any exes, sooo...

How do you feel today?
I feel bored. Really, really bored.

What did you have for lunch today?
I suppose the bagel I had today could be considered lunch.

What friend do you tell EVERYTHING to?
I have two friends that I tell everything: Jalyn and Anastasia.

What are you wearing?
A t-shirt and denim shorts

It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, what do you do?
Nothing because I turn off my phone before I go to sleep, so I wouldn't hear the ringing.

Is there someone you will never forget?
Yes

Last person you hugged?
My grandmother

Do you regret anything you did in the past three days?
Not really

Do you like cuddling?
Oh my God, YES!

How do you feel about teenage pregnancy?
Shit happens. As long as you do what is best for your child, whether it be raise it yourself or put it up for adoption because you can't take care of it, I have nothing but respect for you.

Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Not lately

Are you anything like you were this time last year?
Yeah, I guess I am.

Do you currently hate someone?
I don't hate individual people. Just people in general.

When things get bad, are you more likely to blame yourself or somebody?
It depends on the situation. Sometimes I take responsibility and own up to my mistakes...and other times I take the easy way out and blame others.

Is it hard for you to ask for help?
Asking strangers for help - yes. Asking people I know for help - not usually.

Where was the last place you went?
Best Buy

What’s something that bothers you about girls?
Shit, where do I even start? I can't even think of one specific thing to answer this question with. Girls in general bother me.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Entirely too often

At the moment are you or warm or cold?
Semi-warm

Is there one song that reminds you of the past year?
The Sky Under the Sea by Pierce the Veil...I have no idea why, though.

How’s your life lately?
It's kind of up and down, I guess you could say.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Fall

Do you hate being alone?
No, but I do hate being lonely.

Do you like Chinese food?
Yes

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive

What’s something you do when you’re mad?
I run my tongue over my top row of teeth...God, that sounds so odd.

Are you afraid of death/dying?
I'm afraid of dying before I truly enjoy my life, but I'm not afraid of death itself.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Yes

Do you care what others think about you?
It depends on who it is. If a person that I don't particularly like doesn't like me, then I can't even be bothered to give a fuck. But if someone I like doesn't like me, then I feel like something's wrong me.

Something you do a lot?
Push my glasses farther up on my nose

Who means the most?
I don't really have one specific person that means more to me than all of the other people that I love and care about.

Do you wish that you were somewhere else right now?
Hell. Yes.

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
All the time

Have you ever trusted someone too much?
Yes

Do you miss anyone?
Yes

Are you nice to everyone?
Ha! No

Kill the spider or let it out?
Get my dad or one of my sisters to kill that little fucker

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
Unfortunately, no

What DVD is in your DVD player?
I have no idea and I'm too damn lazy to get up to check.

When is your birthday?
June 21

Do you like pickles?
Sure, they're okay.

What about olives?
Ew, no

Do you have any tan lines?
I have this weird ass tan line on my arms that if I hold them with my palms facing up, there is literally a line going straight down the middle of them where one side is all nice and tanned and the other side is pale and gross-looking. I hate it. I also have tan lines on my thighs and feet.

Whats your favorite place to go and think?
I don't like to sit around and think. It makes me feel bad about myself. I prefer to sit around and daydream. When I do that, I usually go to my room.

When you get upset do you usually keep it to yourself?
No, I usually text Jalyn about it.

Do you have any scars?
I indeed do.

Any cuts?
No

Something you really want right now?
A cute boy who will go to concerts and cuddle with me.

Do you get freaked out when you’re in the dark?
Not usually, but if I've recently read, watched, or heard something creepy, I do.

Have you ever had stitches?
No, thank God. Stitches skeeve me out so bad.

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can’t?
Not really

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
Yes

Do you believe in perfect?
Perfection doesn't truly exist, even though I use the word 'perfect' to describe a lot of things.

Whats something you dislike about today?
I'm so bored and mopey.

Are you good at giving advice?
I'm under the misconception that telling someone my opinion on a situation or person is the same thing as giving advice, so sometimes, while I think I'm giving someone advice by telling them that a boy is an a.sshole or whatever, I'm actually not. Whoops.

Are you a patient person?
Hahahahahaha...ha...NO

Where did you get your last bruise from?
I actually don't have any bruises right now.
 
What do you have planned for your life?
I don't have many plans for my life right now. All I know is that I want to fall in love and I want to be happy.

Can you honestly say that looks don’t matter?
No

Would you rather hear the painful truth or a happy lie?
The painful truth

What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go?
My iPod

Yes or no: eyebrow piercings?
No

Yes or no: thongs for men?
Oh my...no

In your opinion what is the worst type of weather?
When it's cold and the ground is covered in dirty slush left over from snow

Do you like big or small cars better?
Small

If you could have any wild animal as a pet, what would you pick?
A lion

Are you afraid of needles?
I'm not afraid of them, but I don't really like to be around them.

Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
Sad

Do you ever crack your knuckles/back/ankles/wrist s/etc?
I crack my back sometimes.

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
No

Your ex’s car breaks down and they ask you for a lift. Your response?
I can't drive, soo...

Are you a mean person?
I'm a quiet mean person. If I don't like you, I won't bother you or try to start a scene with you, but I will think very mean thoughts about you.

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Playing tetris on my ds

Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
Not always

What was the best part of your day?
The car ride to and from Best Buy because my dad and I had a nice conversation.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yes

Why aren’t you in bed?
I don't want to be right now.

What was the last alcoholic drink you had?
I've never had an alcoholic drink.
 
What is bothering you right now?
The fact that I'm jobless and boyfriendless.

Are you easily scared by horror / thriller films?
Yes

Has a boy sat on your bed before?
Yes

Are you afraid to grow up?
I'm afraid of becoming unhappy when I grow up.

Do you like to hold or be held?
To be held

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
My dad

If you could pack up and leave your home now to move away, would you?
Yes

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
No

The person you fell hardest for texts you at 4 am saying “come outside”. What do you do?
My phone is usually off at four in the morning, so I continue on doing whatever it is that I'm doing with no knowledge that I've gotten that text.

First person you said happy New Years to?
I can't remember.

If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss back?
I've never kissed anyone, sooo...

In the past five days, what would you go back and change?
Nothing

Do you always walk around the house naked?
I've actually never done that.

Would you rather be blind or deaf?
Blind

Baseball or football?
Baseball

Where’s the last place you went besides your house?
Best Buy

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Sure

Do you remember who you liked this time 3 months ago?
Yes... unfortunately

Did you reject or accept your last friend request?
I don't have a facebook anymore, so I don't get friend requests.

Do you like to cuddle?
You bet your ass I do!

Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
I don't think so.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
Yes

Is there someone you used to talk to every day that you don’t talk to at all?
Yes
 
Can you have more than one best friend?
Of course you can.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
My mama

Have you ever known someone that just creeped you out?
Yes

Do you hate it when people mispronounce your name?
I used to, but I can't be bothered to care anymore.

Who is the last person that texted you?
Jalyn

Was today a good day?
No

What are you doing tomorrow?
I have no idea. Not much, probably.

Would you be mad if your best friend dated the person you liked?
I don't like anyone right now. But if I did and she knew that I did, then yes.

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?
Oh God, I hope so.
 
Are you excited for anything?
I'm super excited for the Demi Lovato concert I'm going to on Sunday...not.

Are you worried about anything right now?
I'm worried that I won't find a job soon. I'm worried that I won't find a boyfriend soon. I'm worried that I'll become so bored with my life soon that I'll do something drastic and dumb. I'm worried that I won't be able to go to the Collide With the Sky tour.

Would you rather dye your hair or go tanning?
Dye my hair

If it was snowing right now would you go play in it?
YES!

Who’s in the room with you?
No one

Have you ever made your own survey?
No

Do you save Bed Bath and Beyond coupons?
I don't think we even get those at my house.

Have you ever had a pet goldfish?
Yes

When did you last eat waffles?
It's been a while.
 
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