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This story is weird. But it nearly brought me to tears because...well, read it.
After entering the stage and singing "Moon River" I wanted to go to the toilet. When I wanted to go back, someone grabbed my arm.
"Matt, what do you want? I don't have time now!"
"I think you have plenty. C'mon", he said and I followed hi outside into the cold night.
"I'm freezing", I shivered because of my mini skirt.
"Do you want my jacket?", Matt asked like nothing didn't happen the day before.
I refused to.
"What do you want?"
"You must help me. Otherwise... you know? To make it as short as possible, I took drugs. They found them in my room. And since I'm not the uber-prep, they want to get rid of me now."
"Matt...", my voice trembled. "This isn't true!"
"It is. Now you have to say that it were yours. You're the perfect, intelligent prep. They don't wanna lose you!"
"Matt, I can't do that! Why did you take them?"
"You understand nothing, right? I met new people. People who want me to do things. And I can't do them without being stoned!"
"Which people?", I asked and shivered even more.
"They aren't good for me. I bought drugs from them and now they want me to sell some. No matter how and no matter to whom! Even the guy at the Halloween party got the drugs form me!"
This couldn't be true.
"And if i don't sell them, they...", Matt's voice trembled. He nearly cried although he pretended not to.
"I wanna help you!"
"You /can't/ help me!", he grabbed my arms and pressed them hardly. "The only way is like I told you!"
I wasn't scared. This was Matt. Instead of moving away, I leaned into his arms and hugged him.
"I can help you." And without even knowing what I did, I kissed him. His lips crushed mine and there was such an intensity like I never felt before with him.
I don't know how long the kissed lasted.
But after a long time passed, I moved my lips away. I didn't pull away from his body, though.
"I wish I could have met you at some other point of my live", Matt mumbled.
"If we were in a closed room and really alone, I would sleep with you right now, you know?"
"I know", I whispered into his shoulder. "And I wouldn't stop you."
"Not even because of...?"
"No." I blushed and felt ashamed because this was so true.
"Matt, we can go though that. Together."
"Like a couple?", he asked with a mean tone.
"No, you know why."
"I'm so sorry for what happened yesterday, Carol. I didn't want to... I love you. From the bottom of my heart", Matt said all of a sudden.
"I love you, too." Again these words. And again so tru.
"Nate's better for you", he mumbled, "I don't deserve you."
"Matt...", I started but I didn't know how to go on. Instead, I kissed him again.
"Carol? Where are you?" Renee's voice. And then, she was right behind us.
"Oh my god! Carol, come with me! Nate's waiting for you!", she said and tried to avoid to look at Matt.
"I have to..."
"Yes", he nodded and walked away into the dark.
Tears fell down my cheek and burned because they froze immediately.
"Carol?", Renee asked shyly. "Anything I need to know?"
And I told her everything Matt had said before. I even told her about yesterday.
"I wanna help you", she whispered in disbelief and hugged me.
"Good to know", I grinned.
"Do you... really love him?"
"Whom? Nate or Matt? Both...", I said.
"Now that's a problem", Renee meant and tried to make me laugh. I couldn't.
"Now take this Kleenex. Nate can't see you like that", she said and gave a tissue to me.
I redid my make-up and followed her inside.
"Carol, where have you been?", Nate said. But he didn't look that scared. He sat between Emmi and another girl and talked to their boys.
"You don't seem to be uncom..." I started, but Renee punched me.
"Girls stuff", she rolled her eyes.
Nate laughed and I took the girl's seat next to him. He put his arm around my shoulders. It felt good. But it was something different.