pale blue eyes│the velvet underground [adventureland has one of the best soundtracks.]
Andi hart│the rose court apartments
June 30, 2012
“There’s someone outside who says they knows you. They want to see you.” I looked up at Cindy and nodded.
“Let them in. I’ll just tell them to get out if I don’t like them.” She smiled before leaving the doorway and I could hear her tell whoever it was outside to ‘go straight in.’ I didn’t bother looking up as door opened and closed again.
“How can I help you?”
“It’s nice to see you too, Drea.” I instantly looked up to see Luke standing in front of my desk, arms folded across his chest, looking smug.
“What are you doing here?” I was completely surprised when I had looked up and found Luke there. It was only a matter of time until he eventually did turn up at the pub but I don’t think I was expecting him as soon.
“To see you, of course.” I shook my head, shuffling the papers in front of me into a neat pile and placing them to the side of the desk. Luke took the seat opposite me and it was a while before either of us spoke.
“How have you been?”
I let out a dry laugh, scoffing slightly before answering him. “After all this time, that’s all you have to say to me? After just leaving town with no word, no warning, that’s all you got?”
At least Luke had the decency to look guilty, putting his head for a moment.
“I’m sorry, I just needed to go.”
“What does it matter anymore?” I didn’t wait for an answer, instead I stood up and grabbed a drink from the fridge, throwing Luke a beer as I made my way back to my chair.
“So, what’s the real reason you’re here? And don’t give me any bullsh-t.”
He took a while to answer, like he didn’t know how to word what he had to say to me. After a couple of minutes, he cleared his throat and finally answered.
“My girlfriend did.”
The look on my face must have been a stunned one. I wasn’t expecting those words to ever come out of his mouth. My heart was pounding in my ears and I tried my best to concentrate. If the heart pounding wasn’t enough to tell me that I wasn’t happy with his answer, then my hands squeezing the arms of my chair tight was most definitely a clue. But I had no right to be unhappy, to be gutted that he had a girlfriend. It was not as if I hadn’t moved on either. I had had many boyfriends since my teenage years. But I never ever thought that Luke would ever move for a girlfriend. He was never about commitment, back when we were younger but obviously time changes a lot of things.
“Wow, I never thought you would move for a girl. If I had said that to you when we were younger, you would have told me I was bullsh-tting you.”
He shrugged. “I never thought I would either.
Guess I finally grew up.”
“I guess you did.” I said it quietly, barely audible to my ears, let alone his. “She must be special.”
Luke nodded before answering, somewhat uncertainly. “Yeah, she is.” We said nothing else and I knew it was time for me to leave and for him to leave, too.
Standing up, I pushed the chair in under the desk, closing my eyes in discomfort as the legs scraped along the floor. “I have to get back home, so if that’s all you wanted to say to me..?”
He stood up casually giving me a smirk. “Are you trying to get rid of me?”
“Yes. But I do also need to get home, Juliet is coming over.”
“How is Jules?”
“Good.” That is all I said. He didn’t have the right to ask about my family at all.
I moved towards the door, skilfully moving past Luke who was standing in my way. “So, I’ll see you around.” I held the door open for him, motioning for him quite obvious to leave.
“I see, you don’t want me here.” I sighed, looking at him.
“No, I don’t. I left that part of my life behind a long time ago, I don’t like to be reminded of it and I don’t need to be reminded of it either. I moved on.”
He scoffed. “Clearly, your face when I said I had a girlfriend told me that.”
“F-ck off and get out.”
“Gladly.” He stormed past me and I watched as he stormed out of the pub, slamming the door behind him. I let out a sigh of relief as I shut the office door and walked out the same way Luke did, heading towards my car.
Getting in, I banged my head lightly against the steering wheel when I thought about how badly that had just gone. It was awkward, awful and what made matters even worse was that I had literally proved to him that I hadn’t moved on by saying that I had indeed moved on. I was so stupid sometimes. Hopefully, I wouldn’t have to see or deal with him again and he would never need to know about Ella.
Putting the key in the ignition, I was just about to drive off when there was a knock on my window. Turning my head towards the pavement, my heart stopped when I saw the face that belonged to the hand.
“Andrea, is that you?”