~ Four Winds, Bright Eyes
I feel like I haven't really talked to people on Polyvore in ages. I used to make blogs on here almost daily and I really miss that. Interacting with people who had the same passions and interests as me was what I originally loved about this site.
I want to thank a lot of you for being so kind to me and welcoming. I can't explain how much it means to be called an inspiration, to receive such nice PMs, to be nominated for things like Polyvore Awards, and have this big of a following. I didn't plan on any of this, obviously.
I just feel like I need to vent about a few things because this used to be the place where I did that. I'm not that okay. I have a doctor's appointment in 2 days that I'm very nervous for. I'll be discussing possible therapists or psychologists or whatever type of professional is necessary for me. It's strange really - I never thought I'd be that person who dealt with "mental" problems. But now I really wish I would have asked for help earlier. I don't really know what's wrong with me and it's really frustrating to explain what I'm feeling. I'm very anxious and I have obsessive thoughts. I constantly try to find a reason for why I feel the way I do, which just leads to an anxious, obsessive, vicious cycle.
I don't really know why I'm sharing this one here, but I thought it would help. Now I'm realizing it's quite silly of me to share this because it's vague and doesn't make sense, but oh well.