So yesterday I was missing L. I think it was cuz I'm on my period and I got emotional. Or maybe it was because he took his GIRLFRIEND to church again!... Whatever the reason was, I missed him yesterday -_- It just really got me pissed that he took her to church, the place where WE met! I'm not jealous, or at least I don't think I am, but it makes me mad that he takes her there because I know a lot of people there and some of them knew there was something between us, and he's making me look bad in front of them! It makes me more mad that I'm not there! What a jerk man! But last night I also realized that maybe I won't have to deal with him for a while. I mean, IF I do go to Utah this summer, I'll probably go with my parents, so we won't go to church and I won't have to see him. And unless my aunt and uncle invite his family to their vowel renewal (which is why we might go), then I most likely won't. But if a miracle happens and if maybe, just maybe, my mom will let me stay for a few weeks more (which I hope she will!), then I will go to church every weekend and have to deal with him. But idk. I'm just trying not to stress too much about this situation because there's really no point in it. And if my mom changes her mind and lets me spend my summer in Utah, then he will be the least of my worries! I'll just ignore him again, anyway, I'm there to HAVE FUN with my cousins, not to spend time with him... so yea... I just really really hope my mom will let me spend summer there with my family D: I'll be a good child!!!!!