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everyone says i should be grateful to live in florida; sun, sand constantly. i only moved here about two years ago, and practically as soon as i left maryland my life turned upside down.
my name is caroline alexandria frederick and this is the story of how i became exactly what everyone always thought i would be.
in maryland i was the ideal child. i was far from popular, but i got good grades and didn't get into any trouble. maybe everything changed because i was struggling to cope with my sister's sudden death, or maybe i was thinking, "new florida, new caroline!"
when i moved to florida, i quickly made new friends and we went to parties practically every night, it didn't matter if there was school the next day or not. i was always drinking and smoking and sometimes i was even doing drugs. that's how i met andrew morgan, as a matter of fact. he was like the number one dealer around school, and i wanted to try something i'd never done before — cocaine. it was like love at first sight, at least for me. maybe that's because i was high. but meeting him was the biggest mistake i ever made.
my parents didn't like andrew. they were both lawyers who'd seen him around court for various charges and forbade me to see him. being the typical teenager, that only made me want to see him more. i snuck out to parties and we experimented with drugs together. we didn't go on dates to the movies or have cheesy picnics. every drug we could get our hands on we did. and our favorite activity when we were high was f-cking. that was the extent of our relationship. drugs and s-x.
even though we used protection, of course we had multiple slip ups. i became an expert at using emergency contraception until i could get on actual birth control, which was difficult since i didn't have my mother's approval and i was still young.
however, i didn't get pregnant until after i was on birth control. it was the typical story. i had an ear infection and my antibiotics cancelled out the pill, but i was too high to even think about the possible repercussions even though i knew it would do that. and when i woke up the next morning, i just knew i was pregnant.
i waited until i'd missed a period to go to the clinic. i didn't even ask to hear my options — i knew i wanted an abortion. but then i had my first ultrasound and i immediately fell in love with my baby. andrew was pissed. he told me if i didn't get an abortion, he wouldn't stay with me and support our child. and he kept his promise. even though he'd briefly changed his mind and wanted to be a father, he left when i was six months along. last i heard of him he was in rehab.
the only people angrier with me than andrew about the pregnancy were my parents. they kicked me out and i moved into a group home, where they helped me pull my grades up and finish school. i didn't want to disappoint my baby. i haven't seen any of my family in months and don't plan on ever seeing them again. they left me at the most important point in my life. even andrew's mother is more supportive of me than my own. she buys the baby clothes and sometimes me too, she takes care of everything i can't. she even pays my college tuition.
i was only seven months and three weeks along when i gave birth to georgia kathleen morgan. it was snowing and no one was in the room except my best friend janelle, who was mostly terrified because she was also pregnant and my labor was the first she'd experienced. it was scary to be a mom of a nicu baby, but luckily georgia picked up on breathing on her own, eating, and all her other skills quickly and she only spent three weeks at the hospital when she was meant to stay nine. due to being premature she has some setbacks, including poor digestion and low weight. but i still think she's perfect.
now i'd like to think my life is decent. janelle and i live together with georgia and her son jason. it's almost like we're both the parents of the babies, even though we're not related at all. she might as well be my sister. luckily her father pays the mortgage and most of the bills, and janelle buys groceries and other things we need. i don't have anyone to watch georgia, childcare is too expensive, so i can't work. i'm lucky that i can even find someone to watch her so i can take classes at the local college.
it might not be ideal for some people, but i honestly wouldn't change a thing.